Monday, May 16, 2011

Really Really Intense Feelings

I wake up on May 16th, the day before my birthday, thinking about these two occurrences. Then, I ask myself "What do they mean?!"

Well, if I were sitting in my psychologist's office, he would say, "What do you think they mean?" and listen intently.

So, here I am... trying to think of things to distract me, like videos.

So, I watch this:



Funny, right?

I sit in the bed, thinking. Over and over again I analyze the situation just so that I can piece it into some logical sensible thing that will allow me to do nothing more than to just put it away in my mind and dismiss it like it was some sort of childish dribble (*whew*)!

Let me back up:
For the past two days, I've been sitting up here thinking of a way to keep my innermost feelings in check.

Let's just say that, recently, someone has come back into my life. Well, moreso that they just happened to show up in the same place that I did.

Then, I've got the people who are surprisingly interested in me. Like, as an actual human being. Between the two of those things happening, there's not much that I would like to do other than to hide.

And there's other people, too. People who are still talking to me that I don't really know what else to say to them.

All I know is that since I've posted my love for visiting comic-cons on the cheap mixed with my overt display of nerdiness (visa vi, posting something totally random yet thoughtful about Warp technology), there has been this surge of "let's communicate" that my Vulcan mind has yet to decipher.

It seems... illogical.

(*end transmission*)

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